Jam

Monday, 18 July 2016

Written by: Jam

Hello. I am compulsive gambler. I thought I always was well educated, well-dressed tidy man with head on my shoulders. I was so social and active, I had a lot of friends and I never forgot about my parents too.

My first gambling experience began when my friend took me to casino. That evening I won 1000$! Can you believe that? You do nothing and earn money! I didn't like slot machines or online casinos because I want to speak with others, to see croupiers and the rest of people.

That's why i started to play table games. Then I found live dealer casinos in Internet where croupier stands in front of you with cards. It was so much interesting and interactive I couldn't stop watching. So many tables, so many beautiful girls, chat with them, chat with players. I had no control on my money. No matter how much money I had in the beginning of play (one time it was 10K) because in the evening i left casino with about 200 bucks.

I started to sell my things, watches, my bike just to take a chance to win money back. I've stolen money too many times but for me I said it was borrowing because of course I win and give the money back. All my close relatives realized my problem, so I forced myself to stop.

I thought I feel better after 5 months without gambling, but it came back I took money again and I lost again. After hurting my family and friends again and again, I have no choice but to find help somewhere, or I may end up in jail. It's crazy that I know I am doing wrong but the urge overpowers it.

Any advice would be great as I don't want to ruin my life nor those around me anymore. I found a website with the list of support services which came me up to this forum, that's why I'm here. I understand my problem but I can't fight it, if I knew that this addiction will be so strong I would never begin.

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